so, thought that i was feeling a lot better headwise, but that's coz i've been hiding the fact i can't sleep well at moment, am drinking to try and sleep, and am just exhausted. i am in fact feeling quite shit again.
i have friends where i live, but i live hundreds of miles from my goood good friends, and i miss them. I miss people who i've known for years and years, who know what my head is like, and know exactly how to cope with me, people who will force me to sort myself out.
am feeling like i just want to abandon everything, and go and live in a tent in the middle of nowhere, cut off all connections to everything, but i can't.
i need to stop masking shit in my head, and actually sort shit out with it, or i end up like this even more
